[1.2 Fae] Pinch of Sad

Sorry Journal,

It's been a little while hasn't it? Both me and Eric been busy. That's actually probably an understatement. 

"Uh, Fae? How much money did we have right now again?"

"Why? Did you want something?"

"...The bills are here. Man they charge you fast."

"Tell me it's under $500."

"...I'll be right back."

Eric rushed out the door without actually telling me how much our first bill was. Later on he told me it was just under $700 and that he took a loan to pay it. 

I looked down at Joy, the little puppy we adopted within a couple days of moving in. I wasn't use to living in such a big house, and it felt empty whenever Eric wasn't home.

At least one of us was stress free.

It wasn't that we weren't working.

Although I love all forms of art, sculpting has always been my passion. I needed to be active, release that stress. And given my clumsy side - it was easy. Make a mistake? Just make it smaller. I could chip away and away, and scraps could be reused. 

Besides, everyone needs furniture, not a painting.

Eric kept strumming on his guitar. He did insist on getting an office job, but I told him if he did, I did. 

We are both, after all, artists at heart. 

And he got better fast. He came home empty handed the first couple times sure, 

but gradually his tips began to pay for meals. 

We eventually paid off the loan. We were definitely still poor, but we were eating and 

just barely making payments on time.

Last night was somewhat special.

"Hey Fae, come with me. You gotta see this."

"Hold on, I'm working on this chair. Do you think it looks ok with just three legs?"

"That looks like three and a half legs actually. C'mon take a break."

The stars were many and sparkled so bright. Eric felt so warm next to me in the chilly fall air. It's been 2 years since I've felt the tension leave my shoulders.

"You're glad you listened to me right?"

I jabbed him lightly with my shoulders and giggled.

"I usually am."

"I have something to tell you."

I tensed up a bit again hearing anxiety in his voice.

"What is it?"

Eric didn't look at me but kept staring at the stars.

"Well, apparently some company wants me to sign with them to be a singer. They said my voice could use some work but my guitar skills weren't half bad..."

"ERIC, that's great! You've been telling me you wanted to be a singer for years!

He slowly turned his head towards me.

"It means even less time at home you know. I sort of reacted and signed before I even talked to you about it. 

I'm sorry."

I laughed and couldn't stop. I don't know why, but soon he was laughing along. 

"Hahaha... You did that knowing I wouldn't stop you anyway. You can be such a kid sometimes Eric. 

You sounded so worried haha..."

Our laughter died down and we sat in silence for a while. He kept looking at me but I couldn't tell at that point what I was feeling as what he said sank into me.

He leaned his forehead onto mine. 

"You wanna head inside?"

I just slowly nodded.

We're both not big on PDA, but I think we were a little rough after that. 

Woke up not feeling too well this morning.

Yeah, we were a little rough. 

Going to take a nap before heading to sculpt. Until later Journal!

Signed,

Fae

Uhm yes. I did take a $1000 loan to pay their bills that came within like... 3 days? -_- Did not want the Repo man to come knocking. As soon as they had it, I deducted it from the family funds. It also looks like this family is about to grow!